In the red corner, we have...

Okay, so I'm in a bit of a dilemma. Once again I've gotten myself into something that I'm having a hard time getting out of. You know Chino, right? Yeah, well for some reason.. I just don't think I'm feeling him no more. He's not my type. Never was, I just.. I dunno. For one, I'm a playful mafucka! & he's the serious type that just can't even take a joke. No sense of humor type of person. Although I can see past that, because that may just be good for me... but I don't think I can. & he's.. I dunno.. BUT ANYWAYS!!! This guy Jeremy.. the confusing one.. ooommggg.. All it took was for me to see him. All the I hate you's went out the window. All of the fuck him's went out the window right behind 'em! & now I'm determined. I feel like my pride won't let me just, leave it at that. The aquarius in me is saying, "you have to work for what you want", "don't just give up", "show more intrest".. THIS ISN'T MY STYLE MAN! i'm not the caking type. I don't miss people. This junk is driving me bananas! But.. I think I GOT to have him. I must. There's no other way to get him off my mind. I need to get him where I want him.. get the ball in my court. *sigh...* Sorry Chino, but Jeremy fucked it all up for you. "/ ....

Omg, what did I say? Someone was going to get hurt.....

My first plan of action is to take the "charm" route..

So I send him this picture.
<<<<<

& the subject says, "since I didn't get to see you today.. kisses."

no "lol". no "w| your ugly ass". straight sincerity.

i'm no Casanova but... I think I did a damn good job.

& then I texted him "hope my picture mail made you smile. <3" No "lol" once again.

LOL @ how he walked up to me though. Smile as big as the sun. I felt the love in his hug.

The journey begins...

now, what do I do about Chino?

my thoughts..

So I was already surprised that he was coming out w| another new CD because he's been M.I.A. for so long & i really thought to myself like "nothing ever stays the same, he's gonna release some weak shit & disappear of the face of the earth".. I was wrong. This CD is worth buying in every aspect. He did his thing. "Even when I'm mad" is definitely a song I can listen to over & over, and will more than likely be my new main ringer. :)


& Chinoooo.. yet another post about my new chunky friend.. So, we spent the whole day together yesterday. He called around, I'll say 4:00pm? he met Eric, and Eric got a chance to feel him out & share his opinons w| me. It sounds like he likes 'em, but knowing Eric he'll find something to hate. Uhh, lol. But yeah, I dunno if I'm looking for a reason not to like him because I'm just not ready to like someone as much as I like him yet, or if I just don't want to like him. Because all of yesterday I was looking at him, pointing out every flaw. Like he had on the same shorts he was wearing the last time I saw him. Which isn't that big of a deal because it wasn't back to back. I dunno.. "/. Maybe it's just me. When he was about to leave, in a way I was relieved because I wanted to be alone, but when he left I wish I would have asked him to stay. *sigh*.. Cuzzo always told me to give these hos some Chapter 16 (48 laws of power - use absense to increase respect & honor) but I don't think Chino can handle it. He gets offended when I don't wanna see him. I told him not to pop up at my house, he says "I just won't come at all because you act like you don't want a nigga to see you". Pfft. Just don't pop up at my shit! You feel me? Ugh dudes these days.

I can't wait 'til tomorrow though. Me & big sis planned a little shindig for Chino & her male friend Adrian (which is like my big bro totally in so many ways lmao) and we're supposed to be cooking for 'em & having a "double date" day, maybe watch a movie & whatnot. I guess I can be nice for a day. Give him a little affection. & if that doesn't work.. I'ma let him off his leash.

If I can't figure out the reasons why I like him, then he needs to move around.

God I hate being an aquarius. :|

another post about him..

omggg, i'm doing what i swore to myself I wasn't gonna do.
I'm starting to like him. "/

I'm thinking about him now. I'm waiting on his call. I'm wanting to see him & shit. Ugh. I actually enjoy talking to him. I'm giving all my other friends less & less attention. & what's crazy is..

my fam likes him.

Diddy ft. Keyshia Cole - Last Night

mmmmkkkk, wooooo. remember i told ya'll about Chino right? Well yeah, that's my new lil' thang. ain't nothing sexier than a man who can give you security. He's big & shit.. chunky.. & tall. MMM. So yeah he smoked kush w| me, the first time I've ever smoked that shit.. my head was too gone. We did some running around w| my sister... and at the end of the night, or should I say morning? cause we didn't go to sleep 'til like 7.. we were suuperrr caked up! i never knew how comfortable bigger dudes were!

but yeah, there was this drunk ass dude outside my house last night, talking big shit. My baby handled it though. :) Lmao. I should have recorded that shit.

;x

haa, kees !

yeah, Kees is good. His lying ass.
Psshhh. I'm older than this mafucka!!
all those years thinking he had me on choke.
WTH!!!!

But yeah, he got some speeding tickets.
& had a bench warrant.

He'll be out in no time.

settled in..

okay so this is the official new blog of amanda.. better known as munchi. :)

well, before i start i figure i should update everyone on what's been going on in my life..

01. me & Jacquis are no longer an item. Yeah, I broke up w| him.
01(2). he was more than i could bargain for. once he gets himself together, and stops blaming me for all his problems.. maybe we could give it another try.
01(3). he lives w| his best friend now.

02. i ran back into Keesie. If you know me know me, you know that's a big deal.
02(2). he's in jail now. *tears* i'll talk about this later in the blog.

03. i tried to call Dwyane (another if you know me deal).. he moved outta Milwaukee.

04. me & Jeremy had a baby cake session for a week. That didn't go anywhere.
04(2). although i do miss him.. we don't talk that much anymore.

05. I'm vibin' w| this dude Chino. :) <3 I think I like 'em.
05(2). i knew him from like 5 years ago type shit.. but don't remember him for shit.




so yeah, Milwaukee is far too little. I would have never expected to find Keesie through Tierra's ass!! I guess shes fuckin' w| his little cousin or something. but however it happened, it happened. I was hype ! hella hype. I just couldn't wait to see him. We talked & shit and I swear I was more geeked than a fat bitch at a fresh buffet. This dude.. wow. Lol It's just Keesie. He's always had that affect. But anyways. So, one night I'm w| my sister & we're in his neighborhood. I call 'em & asks if he wants to come w| us. I'm Amanda, so of course he says yeah. :) ♥ We pick 'em up or w|e & we're trying to decide where we wanna go. Cause his hot head, thuggish ass don't like to be around people. Haaa. So Tierra ends up coming, & she's w| his cousin in West Lawn.

KEEP IN MIND, THIS MAFUCKA STAYS IN SOME SHIT!! & WEST LAWN IS THE PROJECTS.
Keesie + the Projects = not good whatsoever.

But of course.. he's Keesie.. so he talks me into it.

So we chill for the night. Everything is cool.. cept I didn't get no sleep cause this fool took up the whole damn couch! Long assssss.......

Anyway, we wake up in the morning. He steady sweating me like call yo' sister so we can go home. Blah blah. My sister's on some other shit, sleep & shit. So I'm like we gotta wait. w|e.
He decides he wants to leave w| his cousins. Who knows why. Who knows where. Keesie is just Keesie & he can't sit in one spot. Understandable. I guess?

So my sister calls like, I'm on my way.. I call him.. no answer. So I tell his cousin like.. "go get him or he's gonna get left." Next thing you know, he zooms out the house like "the boys got my cousin!"

In case you didn't know, the boys = the police.

( sad face. ) so yeah. I hope he's okay.. cause I feel guilty.



...Now, Jeremy. Wow. Talk about a confusing mafucka. This dude.. I just don't understand him. We cool, nothing ever went wrong.. so I dunno wth the deal is? I dunno wth I did to him.. but he's straight dissin' me now. He don't text back. Don't answer my calls. Confusing as hell. & last time I seen him, things were super good. 0_o... w|e.


Chinoooo....... okaayy.... so outta nowhere some dude i-m's me on facebook.. like "don't you be on Villard?" (Villard = my block.) I'm like.. who are you? a week later, "i was over there w| my bro, he was talkin' to your sister.. we were talking in the livingroom". I'm like.. 0_o.. okay? lol whose ur bro? type shit.
Come to find out, it's true! I braided his bros hair like 5 years ago. I've only seen this dude once in my lifetime. I still don't remember him from back then. STILL.
It takes a lot to flatter me.. but Chino did the job. 5 years? only seen me once? i'm still shocked I still leave such a lasting impression on people. Wowww..
Yeah but, Chino came over.. & we sat outside for 5 hours talking. :) He's super nice & always looks mad happy to see me. I can dig it. & he has perfect teeth. :) So I'll def. be keeping him around.

I just hope he's not asking for more than I'm willing to give. Cause I'm not looking for a man.
I don't wanna hurt no one's feelings...

hold up..

let me do this. :]